Time Flies

Less than 2 weeks and ill be in Germany. It still hasn't really sunk in yet. I was thinking about saying goodbye this afternoon on my drive in and just balled the entire way. I know I will see everyone again, it is just the control freak part of me that is going crazy. I guess I dont want people to forget me. Not that they will, but it is never fun saying goodbye. I'm not looking forward to the flight. Its going to be hard. Very hard. I know this. 

Funds are still coming in. Slowly, but they are coming. I printed off another rd of letters yesterday and hope to get them out today. I just coped churches out of a book and am highlighting as i send them letters lol. Who knows. 

It feels weird to be done with college. Not that i haven't had anything to do... lol ive got sooo much to do!  I did get my health insurance taken care of, yay! 

In case your wondering, one disregard how yucky i look because its nearly 1 am and im in bed, and 2, its thermal... okay but back to the story, this is my cat Callie, she sleeps with me when ever im home. She also follows me down the street when i leave. I will miss her, shes my kitty :). She is looking at me thinking, "what in the world are you doing?" I love it! 

Anyways, i think that is it for now. Prayers would be appreciated, its going to be a rough couple of weeks! 

What is life?

I am in senior philosophy right now... it is an interesting class to say the least. We are discussing the "deep" stuff.... if thats what you wish to refer to it as. 

I did find one of the discussions a bit more interesting to than the rest. I believe it was Berkley who said that we arent really matter (our being/physical self) and nothing really exists except God and our mind/souls. Our minds create everything that we need/think we need for it to make sense, but it is the mind that goes on and gives life meaning, but matter (everything physical) is not real, simply a figment of our imagination....

Its been in interesting class. Part of me says, "who in the world cares?" and the other part finds it interesting. We have our first test tomorrow.... hopefully ill do well, im nervous not gonna lie! 

Tomorrow is the garage sale.... the one i'm not supposed to know about ;). Hopefully there will be a good turn out though. I am truly amazed at the generosity of people though. I HATE absolutely HATE fundraising with a passion, i feel like i'm begging people for money. But it is slowly starting to come in! Slowly but surely! I need about $10,000 more for this year and $13,000 for next. But im going for baby steps, this year first and next when it gets here! 

Alright well i'm super tired and cant concentrate to study so i think im going to take a nap and then try to study! 

"To be is to do" Kant  

The Human Condition

It seems at first sight that there is no hope for the human heart. There is heart, or there isn't. As a person, a human, we are here, we live and then we die. The End. Or, as a Christian, we are here, we live, we love, and we die and go to heaven. Somewhere in the middle, we have to get the living part down. Why do we care? Why should we care? 

People never cease to surprise me. Never. The kindness that one heart can hold. Imagine if all of that is combined! What if everyone could love so deeply, so intensely. And im not talking to physical love, or the emotional love, im talking the agape love. 

There is hope for humanity. As long as there is God, there will be hope. :) 

"If I discover within myself a desire in which no experience within this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world.  CS Lewis